Random Thoughts...very random thoughts!

So I have had so many things just spinning through my head lately..... to do lists, things to finish, things to get, things not to forget, school work to finish up, ball practices, emails to return, etc..... I feel like I might just jump off the nearest tall building! But I have had a lot of thoughts lately too. So here they are in no particular order:

I can't wait to hold my baby

I can't wait to hear her laugh-hopefully she will laugh at some point on the trip

Can I make it out of the house without bursting into tears while saying goodbye to the "Littles"

I can't wait for those breakfast buffets!

I can't wait to see what God has in store for us when we visit the orphanage

I want to glorify Him while we are there

I am looking forward to time with my "Bigs" for a few days

I am going to miss my "Littles' terribly

Will Lulu cry, scream, shut down, throw tantrums

Will this trip and adjustment be as hard as Xin's

Lord, please hold me up if it is!!!

Will Lulu like us

Will I forget some important paper we need in China

I can't wait to kiss Lulu's chubby cheeks

Will I be able to leave that orphanage without taking multiple children with me

Did I mention the breakfast buffets

I can't wait to ride the train thru the China countryside

Are Lulu's feet really clubbed

Is jet-lag going to kick my fanny again

What will the new normal look like

I am so excited!!!!!

I am scared

I dread the 16 hr plane ride...oh please let my TV and light work this time

I hate those small HARD beds

Can't wait to try some spicy Hunan food

I don't want Lulu to be frightened

Will she let me comfort her

Will Jaida do ok without Mommy

Will Xin miss us...oh how I hope he does

Will my parents, bless their souls, be able to survive the "Littles"

I get teary thinking of the reunion of our family in Columbia on the 8th

Did I write everything down my parents might need

What if the ants come back....we get ants sometimes

Will all of our luggage make it

Hopefully nobody will get sick

I can't wait to kiss Lulu's nubby little fingers

Will this really be our last child...holy cow...I would have never guessed 3 adoptions!

I want to enjoy this time in China

I want to stop worrying about ALL the little details

I have to change diapers again...and wash bottles...at 46!

Will Lulu be scared to death of the dogs...they are a trip by the way, the 2 of them!

Is the train station going to be hard to navigate without a guide and all our stuff

I am excited about Hong Kong

Will Lulu look the same as her pictures

Will Jaida REALLY be ok

Just the thought of homeschooling when we get home kicks my fanny

Are we bringing enough gifts for the kids at the orphanage

I can't wait to go back to Lucy's (restaurant in Guangzhou)

Will we still be able to get a "red couch" photo

I am going to have 5 kids!!!!!!

I am so BLESSED to have 5 kids!!!!!!!

I am so scared to have 5 kids!!!!!!!!

Did I print out all the directions from Mapquest my parents might need

Am I leaving enough meals so my poor Mom doesn't have to cook too much

We are missing Xin's bday (celebrating before we leave.... but still...guilt)

Sam will turn 10 while in China, I hope it is a good day

Will it be utter chaos when we get home...I don't function well in chaos

I think it will be utter chaos for awhile

Oh yeah...another growth opportunity for me

Will I "feel" God when I need Him

Did God really call us to this...or did I just imagine it

Seriously can't wait to kiss her cheeks

I almost forgot to leave the trash pick up schedule..and the recycle

Will I be able to have my much needed morning quiet time again...maybe not for awhile

God will understand ...I will steal some semi-quiet moments when I can

I get to hold my baby in 18 days...less because they are 13 hours ahead

2 weeks from now I will be sitting on the plane....8 hours down, 8 more to go

I think I will have a glass of wine on the plane, maybe it will help me sleep?

8 months ago I saw her face for the 1st time, 8 more months without a family

In 18 days we will have her in our arms forever, our Louisa will be with her family

I have to stop now because it really never ends, my brain and its endless chatter, this is just a sampling. Are you tired? I am.